Do you ever make yourself mad?

So some people thought I should start a blog.  Well maybe this will be a better outlet than facebook (we all know how that doesn't work).  So here it goes.

I thought I would start off with what is currently bothering me.  Have you ever done something that upset nobody but yourself.  And you knew it from the begining, in the middle of the situation, and when it back fired right in your face.  Hopefully nobody does this.  I recently have put myself through such a situation.  Lets just say its frustrating. 

I knew as soon as I let my hopes up that they would come crashing right in my face.  I even let the situation play out and be taken for a ride with no control.  I knew it wasn't a good idea but I just wanted to feel like things were ok.  Well they weren't.  And today it came crashing down.  And it came down hard.  You would think a guy would learn.  I set myself up for this and I have nobody else to blame but me.  So as I was sitting at work I wrote these lyrics trying to vent it out.  SPOILER ALERT!!!  I have never posted something like this where more than 1 person can see it.  Just a little heads up about it.  I decided to right it to myself as another person and then have this dialog back and forth between myself.  I hope you can decifer the real meaning.

Split decisions, fighting fixes
I test ride my memory
Tunnel vision, I give in and put
An end to make-shifting relief
This game has got me shaking hands
With my own enemies
I see faces, but none of them
Not one believes in me

And the end of the road
I'll hate to say I told you so

I don't need you to find resolve
Cause when it's said and done
Down to one
I'll hate to say I told you so

And as your promises dissolve
I'll get bragging rights
You'll realize that from day one
I always told you so

Go on living making killings
Off of all your broken dreams
I'll stay in within the out
And I bet you won't find one weak bone in me
It's been a long time coming but no need for sympathy
I made my mind, I'll spend my time
Just making you believe

And the end of the road
I'll hate to say I told you so

I know this doesn't sound like it's the best of me
But it feels so good to know what I've got
I found a remedy

Found me a fix for all these broken memories
Something to cure the sick and suffering
Cause I did what I wanted to
Rest assured, no more time to lose
I found a remedy

I don't need you to find resolve
Cause when it's said and done
Down to one
I'll hate to say I told you so


For those of you that know me well enough this will make sense.  Its been one of those times I guess.  Well I hope to put more of the stuff that I have written in a place to finally share with more people.  I will try to keep it interesting and real.